LOL went to work from august 1st to 3rd lol was damn freaking fun and i am already missing the people met at the part time job haizzz...emo lol...but still luckily got some of their contacts haha for eg xie yao henry and co lol BUT there is still a BIG BUNCH that nv get contact from one...LOLwas really fun mending the GrandChase booth... LOL...coz i gotta play a mini game called scissors paper stone...LOL anyways i haven say zhong dian the event was the asiasoft GAMEFEST LOL ok i will grab pictures from xie yao's blog and post it here i guess lol

TAKE CARE =D

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this morning something shocking happened...a shocking news...my uncle in malaysia passed away...he was the youngest brother of my mum...when me and my brother were still young...he stayed with us for some time...instead i think its a long time...we got angry with him we laughed at him we pissed him off...but still he cared for us...he went back to malaysia for a long time...when we are older now...we do not have much time spent with him...the last time we saw him was one or two months ago...he actually came from malaysia to see us...at first i thought he is in need of money but no...he is here to see us...to see us for the last time...and the last time i saw him...i never talked to him but i greeted him...that was the last moment between me and him...

i was stunned when i woke up this morning when dad woke us up...was speechless...the first thing i heard was mum chanting and crying...i sat on bed for a while to settle down...and went to the living room speechless...mum and dad decided to go back to malaysia...for 3 days...i wanted to go back...but i gotta work on thursday...i was totally in a dilemma...i told mum and dad to go ahead first and i will join them the next day...and when i called them again...they told me not to go...i was speechless...gwen asked me what happened...and i told her...at that moment that's just what i need...someone to talk to...for the rest of the day...i was looking back...and i found out that i said something very bad to him...very bad...i am feeling very guilty now...very guilty...deep down i miss him...today the tears seems to be endless...flowing...never ending...even now...they are flowing down by themselves...

i've learned...to cherish even more...every moment with anyone should be a happy one...

now what i need most is to go somewhere to let myself settle down...a place where i can laugh hardly...a place when i can have fun and cheer up...i wanted to met some friends for dinner coz i just need accompany...but got no replies...guess they are busy with stuff...really apologize if i bothered you all...i guess we have to rely on ourselves after all...

take care guys...i will cherish all of you...

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sometimes i believe horoscop sometimes i don't but now i must say i believe...

went to read susy's blog and saw this...

"Libra being undecisive and hate to be stuck between people in order to make choices... and to add on they think alot..."

How true man haizzz....

anyways just finished the ten days straight job haha...it was real fun working with the poly dudes yewei, sbl, teddy, maveric and klenn who is mave's fren...its like doing a group project once again...haizzz miss those times...blowing balloons everyday was fun and when we let go the balloons at the end of ceremony was more delightful...haha felt a sense of accomplishment...haha...

met new friends though...kenni...calvin...benny...jag and the others... it was great working with them no stress just laughters haha and fun...ok whats the most impt thing is the PAY LOL 600! gotta get that real soon...

saturday have to go for gwen's 21st party...can't wait for that haha...and erm tml i guess meeting kenni and calvin for random stuff then meet maveric to buy present for gwen haha...

erm i am lost with words now lol anyways susy is coming back soon! haha lets all kneel down and await the queen's arrival! LOL (PS. however i will be the one running far far away and only leave jane and liting and the others kneeling down LOL!) HAHA NO LA JKJK

MUST MEET UP FOR K GALS!!! MY THROAT IS ITCHING!!!

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so many things had happened...yeap...erm these days i have been trying very very hard and my very best to look for a job...just got rejected once...BUT REJECTION IS PART OF THE PROCESS!!! i not afraid...yeah i will find one before ns...

yeap erm actually one week ago i did tear abit...but its not sad nor happy just that...there were 2 NS guys who passed away...condolences to their parents and friends...one of them was friend's friend...and yeah hope you all try and get over it asap...yeah so this is the background...so when i knew that was a group of friend's friend...it struck me...i went to their blogs and yeap read through...then yeah just as i were...but i guess mine was more impactful as i was still young...

i know i am saying it again but yeah...after ah li kor passed away (i was still like 6 or 7...din know much...) my aunt who is his mother actually came to my house to shan shan xing...then one day she brought me out to buy something at night...then while i was walking beside her...i suddenly heard her crying...she continued walking and then i was silent i nv say or ask anything...suddenly she said..." ah li kor went to a very faraway place..." coz that time i still dun understand death...but i definitely know someone who loves me alot has left me...a cousin who actually touched my life more than anyone do...that is why i always feel comfortable when people are caring and loving towards me...and so i will do vice versa...

anyways i guess i should stop for now...yeah just can;t stop thinking of him...

bought a new webcam and was spamming around... haha but scared some ppl but i hope you all understand that i am a very hyper person and dun get misunderstood i know its scary but dun worry...lol i just wanna test test haha...=D

yup

anyways take care guys...i really can't afford to lose anyone...thats why i always try to love and care everyone around me...OF COURSE IF YOU STEP ON MY TAIL!!! YOU JUST HAVE TA WATCH OUT LOL haha no la jkjk....

nights =D

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sorry to those who are offended from my last post...but i was not saying about you guys coz ppl i know of course i wun think that they are that bad just that those that i met during work that day...ps la susy =D

anyways its a happy week last friday coz WE GRADUATED! yeap though jane was before me but we were on the same day!!! =D yay haha

and yeap must really say no matter what we had gone through the wind and rain (feng feng yu yu)
FIRST i want to thank my family for supporting all the way for my studies and everything though i know i am the MOST BAD TEMPERED person in the whole family...and sometimes i really hurt you all alot...i know in my heart that i am realyl guilty and i really wanna say sorry...but in those moments i just can;t say it out... so what i wanna say here is...i am sorry mum and dad and bro...thanks for bearing with me these past few years and thanks dad and mum for bringing me up... i know its not easy...i know when i was in secondary school and getting bullied by people when they say i am ugly and short and stuff...and i will come home and tell you guys what they said to me and i will ask why i am born like that...i know it hurts both of you for saying that to you...and i really want to say sorry...coz in the end its not what you want too...yeah and after i stepped into poly i learned taht i should live as who i am and whatever appearance i am having...and live with confindence... I LOVE YOU GUYS =D

SECOND i want to thanks Jane, Susy and Liting who had also encouraged me when i am down and sit down and chat sometimes...really thanks alot =D love ya guys too! y'know these years...though susy comes back occasionally i am happy enough already coz at least we cherished and have the time to get together to sit down and talk about the past and everything happening around us...and sometimes when we chat we just chat endlessly and doesn;t seem to run out of topic...and yeap i just hope that susy will be able to come back to stay long term after her studies...coz is like always when she comes back after some time she has to leave and yeap everytime seems like we know that we have to wait again...though we might say "aiya she coming back again..." haha but in our hearts we hope that she faster come back so we can gather again...yeap so hope you and your sis get great grades and FASTER COME BACK!!! Though sometimes i might have mood swings and stuff...i really wanna say sorry to you guys...really sorry...=D yeap really love ya guys alot and also not forgetting the IT guy Ci qing and bassist Yong rui...

Third of course the MOIMD DUDES and friends from other courses IAD PID VSC ADM...honestly speaking...these three years had been a really fruitful one...i have grown alot alot because of you guys...and also learnt alot...really missed those times at studios and stuff...and also ORIENTATION i think those are the times wear we really had fun together...i still remember refresh i was in indigo and ignite was in the entertainment group! haha hope you guys still have that orange refresh shirt and for ignite that black one and for entertainment! the BIG "E" shirt haha which is pink in colour! haha to be honest i really learned alot. be it in work or in friendship...i know that there are alot of feuds in our course...but yeah i just hope that we can let things past y'know...honestly speaking i am good with everyone...i smile to everyone in the course and also i talk to everyone in the course...i know that maybe party A hates Party B but i still befriend both parties...because thats who i am i really dun want to make enemies coz...its better having one more friend than making one more enemy...so you either like me as a friend for who i am or hate me haha...but even if you hate me...i will still smile and chat with you...and i chat with you honestly...not with a fake smile or what...yeah i am that open to everyone that i know in the course...i dun care if you hate me or what...you are still my friend...

Finally to the lecturers...you guys really taught us loads i must say...really thanks alot to you guys...and really i respect you guys...

yeah time really flies...and another chapter starts...before that...we were still talking about what we will do after graduation and now...we all graduated... all i can say is i love you guys....i always wanted to say that...

I remembered after i sang that day...i did say take care guys...just that its too soft and i wanted to continue saying i love you guys but had no chance coz there is not enough time left....i really deep down from my heart thanks everyone who had entered and left...my life...every single one of you left me with new strength...and i really appreciate it...thanks alot =D


i love all of you...


and hope to see you guys again...

take care...

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ALRIGHT GUYS I AM BACK!

the ns letter haven come yet...i very pissed...

and then next is yesterday go work the cashier really lai ang aka come red...seriously...i cannot do anything i just one day worker lol...so i just bear with it for the whole day until this japanese customer came and asked her..."erm this one whore(four) dollars?" and then she keep on repeat the whore for a few times before she stop because the red colour one standing beside me kept on ignore her and i nearly burst out of laughter when the customer was repeating it...LOL OWNED~!

I LIKE

anyways...graduation ceremony is coming...emo...

erm other than was helping my bro to design his namecard...quite easy though coz he doesn't expect much...

this japanese breakdancer dude whose my bro's fren came to live in our home for 3 months...i think he on holiday...but seriously he looks totally like a yakuza...fierce dude...but when he speaks................mild dude...yeah lol...

today went for rehearsel...pitch went out abit...JUST ABIT I SWEAR I WILL SING WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL ON THE ACTUAL DAY...PROMISE K...mind you i expect alot alot from myself when it comes to singing...and i really wanna do it to my best! =D

next up i am gonna do up my showreel and look for a job b4 ns coz the person said i at least will september then go in...........pissed.....

alrights nvm and yes singaporean(alright though i am an singaporean BUT at least i am not like them) shoppers are a real pain in the ass DAMN IT...first thing they bring the items to your counter...alright...nvm...i am happy with it so i helped them packed...but why the hell they always frown and stare at ppl...seriously...i really regret not giving them attitude...yes i agree all of them really high class and rich so what...FOR FUCK RICH+NO MANNERS=SHIT USELESS HUMAN BEING ON EARTH...i mean seriously come on la we are working and we SMILED AND SAY THANK YOU AND MAY I HELP YOU...SO PLS JUST GIVE US A SMILE WOULD PLEASE US...always talk about bad service...if you treat the service provider well do you think they will kuai lan you? no right so precisely both parties must be happy....oh yeah sometimes some of them more ridiculous...they are the ones that freaking cause global warming...they want EACH ITEM IN ONE PAPER/PLASTIC BAG...TOTAL SICKENING...IF I AM PA LEVEL 25 I WOULD HAVE CRIT YOU TO DEATH (for dota players)...yeah man...i always thought that rich people are all kind and have very good manners...unfortunately no! they are all super ugly looking monsters with freaking thick make ups walking around...they just wear a mask when they talk about things like "oh no la haha (smiles from cheek to cheek) i just donate all of my money coz i think they really need help" please stop wearing your mask....

but there are also good rich people though come to think of it...

and final thing that i am pissed off about is......my nametag














yes... this is self explanatory if you are a singaporean who are well versed in using irc or msn or short form vulgarities...anyway...as i was saying only singaporean will understand this...the japanese and korean shoppers also did frown though...so i guess its not my name's fault most of the shoppers and frowners are female...so i guess maybe they all come red...erm no lets look for a better word...CODE RED SOUNDS NICER! =D


anyways this is a long post with finally ONE PICTURE so have fun reading and yeah take care ciaoz! =D

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have been trying hard to spice up the corporate vid script...but its hard...i guess just leave it corporate will do...

I feel left out...

whatever...

who cares...

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CiQing
Elroy
Jane
Liting
Susy
Yongrui
Cheryl
Gwendelyn










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